Tuesday, February 13, 2007
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wow. im too tired to type proper so yeah lol. just so ya know. i am BEAT to shit. omg. my hands alone are about to fall off. i have been working 37 hours in the past five days! PLUS i have been going to school! my back, legs, feet, and entire body is in pain! people think that working in a flower shop is EASY? my fucking ass. my mental state is down the drain. i have no money. i have a total of FIVE dollars in my checking account. FIVE!!!!! so now me and Ryan can't celebrate Valentine's Day because he doesnt have a job, and i have no money. i will next week, but not this week. im emotional and just down right dpressed. i want this stupid fucking holiday to end. if i see one more godamn red rose, i swear I am going to vomit and then go sit in a dark corner and slit my writst. {not actually}. even my SKIN is in pain. i have a shit load of school work i have due on thursday. and i have no effing time to do it. fucking A. someone just serioosly put a gun to my head. i dont feel appreciated by my own godamn boyfriend. i dont feel nticed by my fucking friends. i feel like im fucking shit up at work. >.< my life is rediculous! absolutely rediculous! GAWD. i dunno what to even do right now other than to goto bed. sorry for the swearing and the improper grammar...i REALLY needed to get that out. sorry for the violence and stuff... i need to get some sleep now... love you all..peace