Thanks for all the feedback Isis and IF! I appreciate it. And yes I am doing much much better. ^.^ Ryan ended up getting me a lot of chocolate lol so I was all set. =p. After I got my pay check from Valentine's Day, I was ALOT better lmao! I was able to pay off my phone bill completely, pay my car insurance and finally buy the last text book that I needed for school.
It's really hard being an 18 year old college student/part time worker. People always say "Oh college is the best time of your life! Live it up!" And half the reason is because your on your own and independent from your parent, and the other half is that you are able to access alcohol easier... well not in my case. I live at home because I am going to a community college, which is what i want anyways, and I won't drink until I'm 21, which is the leagal age in the States. So I really don't party that much but Ryan does. Sometimes I'm invited to visit him, like this past weekend, and other times I'm not. I'm not mad that he gets to have fun and I don't, I'm just frustrated because I keep asking myself, "When is it MY turn to live the "college" life?" I feel like I am already an adult. I have been paying bills since I was 16 years old. And I know that my bills compared to an average adult's bills are not even comparable, but my financial situation compared to an average college student is more stressful. I am only 18 years old, and I want to have fun. I am very tired of everything being based around alcohol and drinking. There are so many other things that are more important than drinking every weekend. I just get very frustrated because there is nothing that I can do about it. I don't mind going to parties with Ryan and them, I just don't want to become the babysitter for EVERYONE. Ryan and his close friends, I don't mind, but I don't want that line to be crossed. And yeah I really don't know where I was going with this lol.... It was just on my mind. Anyways, I have to eat dinner! I'll try and write more often! Thanks again for the comments! *hugs and kisses for all!* Peace.